Warm air ruffled his hair, whispering a thousand battles into his thoughts. There had been an explosion – sudden and so loud he felt it down to the marrow of his bones. Immediately alert, he’d fired back with everything he had. Then silence. His adrenaline decreased and the beat of his heart quieted enough to look around. He moved slightly toward his buddy for a fist bump. They deserved at least that celebration here in the small outpost assigned them. There hadn’t been many of them to begin with and now, down to just two, they had bravely carried on. Duty. Honor. Country.
His battle buddy since the beginning of this military journey was immovable. He gave a low whistle between his teeth.
“Jack! Hey, Jack!”
It was then he noticed the brown stain growing on Jack’s chest. He crawled over and cried out, but it was no use. Jack’s eyes were unblinking and his face expressionless.
The report of machine guns echoed. He was alone. And he would fight on.
Things have already been strange. Very strange. Ever since Moses returned to his hometown in Egypt from his adopted desert home, unbelievable events have taken place. For one thing the Nile turned from water to blood for awhile. No, it wasn’t some weird algae thing. It was blood. You don’t believe me? Ask anyone. The stench was terrible and, of course, no one – not even the animals – could drink from it. Then frogs. Frogs! Really! They were all over the place. They’re slippery when you step on them. Did you know that? Not after they’re dead and dried up under the sun. No. When they’re alive and hopping all over the place and you can’t walk anywhere without stepping on them. I won’t even talk about the gnats that flew up our noses. But we at least got a reprieve from the flies – swarms of them – that were all over the place in Egypt. It was the same with the plague on the livestock. What a loss! Oh, not in Goshen. No, we Israelites were prevented that trouble here. And the boils, hail, locusts, and darkness. I kid you not. I almost, almost, began to feel sorry for the people who had enslaved us for hundreds of years – until I remembered how we were treated by them.
Now this. Moses and Aaron got us all together and said we’re supposed to take a year-old male lamb without any defects into our homes for two weeks. We’re supposed to make sure there are enough lambs to feed every family member. Then – slaughter! Yes. Just when we were starting to like the little thing. My brother even named it. He eats out of my hand, you know; his little tongue licking every last bit. But we can’t make excuses. He has to be slaughtered at twilight. Then my parents are supposed to take some of his blood and smear it on the sides and tops of the door frame. Every family in this town is supposed to do it. We won’t be the only ones crying over our little lamb.
We wonder what will happen at midnight, and everyone in the neighborhood has their own idea. But we all agree the Egyptians won’t do this. Oh! What if we can hear the wailing clear over here when every Egyptian household loses their firstborn: the Egyptians in prison clear up to the Egyptians in the palace. Horror! And Moses says be ready. After everything else that’s happened since he returned, we will do what he says. Don’t take time to let your bread rise. Eat lamb roasted over fire, along with bitter herbs and the bread that didn’t have time to rise. Pack a go bag because the Pharaoh will call for Moses and tell him he will finally grant his request to let us out of slavery. But we must hurry, hurry, hurry! Grab what we can and go! Go fast! And if some Egyptians give us some of their stuff to make us leave, well I won’t stop them. Plunder can be done in a variety of ways, can it not?
It’s twilight. Oh! The lamb! The bleating! The blood spatter! We cry, but we do what we’re told. We follow the instructions. Death will pass because of the lamb’s blood. We shut the door.
We’ve heard that we are fighting an invisible enemy. We certainly can’t see the Corona virus with which the world is contending. Who knows what else around us needs our alertness, our discernment, our will to fight? Maybe the personal things that pester us need more than a glance from us. Maybe troubles in this world that call silently need more than our helpless hope that someday things will be different. There are other things, people, and forces that have been invisible to us throughout history, as well. I alluded to it in the post https://www.myfiresidechat.com/2017/05/17/living-in-our-time/ .
So as we face something new to us and old to the world, let’s recall again words given to us many years ago.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
We fight an invisible enemy suited, ourselves, with invisible armor. We fight an invisible enemy by being unyielding in our stand against it. We persevere. And the very best way to fight – the most powerful way to fight – is with constant contact with our Supreme Commander, Jesus. Amor up and fight on!
It had been a rough day. Gunfire’s repetitive staccato had rattled his bones and jarred his nerves. But it had ended for now, and he was assigned Fire Guard while others slept. Though he was deployed in a part of the world he had always associated with heat, he could see his breath in the night air. It was downright cold!
He’d quieted himself to the point that he was better at discerning the difference between a rogue footfall and the crack of cold, but though a soldier might appear quiet or still, guard duty was never a time of rest.
Something caught his eye, and he zeroed in on it. Oh. A star. Only a star. But its brightness pulled his gaze back to the sky, and he thought of the old story – the one about wise men following a brilliant star and shepherds in the night.
Shepherds in the night. Now there was something he could understand. Men of varied ages spending time in the field. Without decent food. Smudged and dark from dirt and sun. Always slightly on edge, a result of their responsibility to protect. To fight when necessary. To be invisible, unremembered, and essential. They guarded sheep. He guarded freedom.
On a night not unlike this one and in a place relatively near to the station he guarded, those shepherds watched; watched the sheep and the undiscernible darkness. Their eyes, like his, might have blurred from tiredness. Some of their comrades might have been collegial – others, not so much. But, unlike him, their night had exploded in light and sound and magnificence with the announcement of the ages. Glory! To God! In the highest! A baby was born who would first save the world for all history, then rule for all eternity. History! Eternity!
The One who was announced did battle with the forces of evil. Yes, he knew something about that. And He loved. Yes, he knew love. Wished he knew it better. And He finished what He started. Yes, it was part of the Soldier’s Creed.
The soldier felt suddenly small in the grand scheme of things. He stretched and gazed as far as his eyesight would allow. He wouldn’t see magnificence tonight. He would only see the stars over the hills. His view was magnificent, was it not? It would have to be enough on this Christmas night. While those he loved and those who hated him and those who didn’t give him a thought celebrated with feasts and presents and songs and candlelight, the stars would have to be enough.
“Merry Christmas”, he whispered.
And then, then he saw . . . something. Were his eyes playing tricks? No, no, he was as sure as anything he’d seen it; if only for an instant. Angels! Not a multitude. And not glowing and beautiful like the pictures he’d seen in books when he was a child. But fierce. Profoundly scary and somehow comforting. No one would believe this. Not his buddies. Not his friends and family back home. But when you witness the unseen, you never forget it. He knew what he saw.
And his heart beat fast with awe as he blinked back grateful tears on the quiet Christmas night.
There is an ancient pine tree deep in the Forest of Dirgel that stands taller and stronger than any other variety, of its own and others. No one knows when it sprouted nor how long it grew. Perhaps the mysterious forest originated with the tree, or maybe lucky placement gave it enough room and light to stretch to the beckoning sky. But whether it was the first in the forest around it or was the result of a pinecone dropped by tree or animal, it became the reigning presence that lent itself to the old story.
The legend is nearly as old as the forest, itself, handed down from generation to generation; though two pilots recounted seeing the very tree on Christmas Eve, and a rugged ranger, long gone, witnessed it, himself.
On the day before Christmas, goes the story, as the light dims, fading from winter white to periwinkle to black, the moon dips slightly lower in the sky, lighting the forest with its winter beams – a spotlight on the ancient tree. The air, sharp with cold, begins to shimmer with golden flecks of light, turning the night into a velvety backdrop. Then the branches of the tree reach lower, and lower still until they brush the ground. And in the glittering, gleaming night something amazing begins to happen!
Tiny red, blue, and green berries sprout along the soft green needles. Gradually little bits of corn and pumpkin spring up in concert from the branches; and fruit of all kinds drop from the already laden boughs.
Then one by one forest animals begin to gather around the old tree. Some internal knowledge tells them there is a miraculous feast awaiting them as the glittering light breaks through the darkness. First, little chipmunks, fresh from their winter hibernation, peek up from the snow. Then squirrels: gray, red, and brown chatter to each other as they scamper near. Deer and wolves, friends for the evening, sniff the air and begin to munch on the feast. Birds drop down onto the higher branches and lend music to the night when they break from dining on the abundance of the old tree. The quiet of the forest erupts with happy sounds of animals, some very hungry from too many snowy days, as they enjoy the profusion of good food.
And in the still and sparkling Christmas Eve the stars glimmer and shine as they watch the gathering. They know how the legend began, for they saw the One who calls them each by name and hears their songs in the night reach low and create the hidden gift in celebration of another most spectacular gift one silent night long ago.
Eight quarters. That’s what did it. It was two dollars sucked into a laundromat dryer with nothing to show for them that cracked her final effort to put on her game face. And now, as she sat on a cold bench, holding a large bag of wet laundry and waiting for the bus, a few tears burned her eyes. She blinked quickly to chase them away.
It had been six months since she moved from her small town back in Oklahoma. Her parents had worn worry on their faces like freckles; but they had bravely waved goodbye, whispering prayers – prayers for her to remember where she came from, prayers for a sense of home in a strange city – they thought she hadn’t heard. Her dad had flipped a quarter in the air and she’d caught it.
“Remember,” he’d said. “Remember even a quarter says to trust God.”
“And if a quarter knows as much,” her mom had added, “then you do, too. And whenever things get troublesome, just take a quarter’s advice.”
Only she had used her last quarter in the laundromat dryer – the dryer that didn’t work. She didn’t even have a quarter to look at. Oh, she went through the motions of bedtime prayers and thanks for food, but . . . The baby in the manger seemed very far away.
Now it was Christmas Eve. She would be missing the special stew her mother always made and cocoa and cookies as they decorated the tree. But if she thought about it too much, it would just depress her. She would ignore the day. She had rejected her parents’ offer of transportation money. Too proud, she admitted. She would take their phone call and pretend she had gone somewhere exciting. A trickle of water seeped from the laundry bag in front of her and ran down the slanted pavement.
“I haven’t seen you here before.”
She glanced over at size 13 shoes. At least 13, she thought. Her eyes moved to a wooden cane topped with an engraved solid brass cane head in the shape of a tree branch, and upward to a wrinkled, leathery face.
“Looks like you were in a hurry,” he chuckled.
“I . . .”
“Dryer on the fritz?” he tossed her the question that felt like a lifebouy.
“Yes, that’s it.” She wouldn’t admit the quarters she’d lost in it were some of the last until her next paycheck. At least she had a bus ticket.
Fumes from the bus clouded the air as they climbed the steps. It occurred to her that steps might be hard to manage with a cane, but when she turned to look, the old man seemed strong and spry.
As she stepped off the last stair at her stop, she heard a familiar voice.
“Imagine living so close,” the tall stranger marvelled. “Say – I have a washer/dryer in my unit you can use.”
She considered. Was it safe? Her wet load made her decision, and she nodded.
His apartment building was so close – only a couple of buildings from her own. But she supposed it wasn’t unusual to not have met him before.
She couldn’t have said what she’d expected, but she stepped into a surprisingly cozy home. For that’s what it was. The very air was a welcoming hug. He plugged in lights on a Christmas tree in the corner, then showed her to the dryer.
While waiting for her clothes to dry, he brought her a heavy blue bowl of beef stew along with buttered french bread, perfectly toasted. The simple meal warmed her through. It reminded her of home.
“I was going to finish decorating the tree this evening. Care to help?” he asked.
He held out an ornament with an iridescent glow. She took it and carefully hung it on a branch. It was one of a kind. Truly stunning.
As she lay in bed the next morning, the events from the previous evening played in her memory. She could almost taste the gingerbread cookies and hot cocoa the old man had brought out while they finished decorating his tree, a tree that rivaled any she’d ever seen.
The phone rang: a Christmas morning call from her parents. Was she doing okay? Had she made any friends? They still prayed every day for her to encounter some sort of family-like support when she needed it. They missed her, and had hung her special ornaments on the tree. She told them of the tall old man she’d spent Christmas Eve with, leaving her wet laundry and missing quarters out of the story.
She slipped into her newly laundered jeans and sweater. She couldn’t remember laundry smelling so fresh! Energized, she decided to hand-deliver a thank you note to her new friend. The winter sun muted the light as she stepped onto the sidewalk on her way to the old man’s apartment two buildings down. She passed the first building and – wait. She turned around. No, this was where his apartment building had been. Had been! She stared at an empty lot. Yet not completely empty. For there, a few steps in, was a pile quarters. Eight, to be exact. And snowflakes gently fell as she read, IN GOD WE TRUST.
I tripped on the last step out of the police station. Oh yes. The mighty Detective McBrennain had decided there was nothing to charge me with after all and released me. Bully, that’s what he was: accusing me of things I knew nothing of, twisting my words, and stealing my sleep. I felt like I’d lost half my weight and part of my mind in sweat and anxiety. And now, here I was, picking myself off the ground, wondering if anyone would see me on my middle of the night hike back home, and hoping my wild floral combination of red, orange, and spring green wasn’t sticking out from under my sweats. I was absolutely too tired to do anything about it.
“Miss?”
I looked up and a policeman motioned me to his car. I had the crazy urge to make a run for it, and I’d like to say common sense prevailed, but who are we kidding? It was fatigue.
“You look tired. Can I give you a ride home?”
Seriously? I began to regret ever going for a mani-pedi and Sunday School cursed everyone involved, including the lovely Lolita, my manicurist. Despite my newly-found mistrust of detectives in general, I got in his car.
“My name is Sergeant John Don. And you are . . .?”
I gave him my name and address, leaned my head back, and, I’m embarrassed to say, immediately fell asleep. I must’ve been roused by the engine turning off. And there in front of me was my boring apartment building. I’d never seen anything more beautiful.
“Do you mind if I ask you a few questions?”
Good grief. I was so very tired, but not so tired that I didn’t care if people saw me sitting in a police car at 3:00 in the morning. I invited him in.
I flipped the switch to heat the coffee I’d made for McBrennain. Sergeant Don would not get a fresh cup.
Two hours later, I’d not only made a fresh pot, but was more awake than I’d been since my mani-pedi. I’d shown the Sergeant the pictures from my phone, I’d told him everything I’d told McBrennain, and more. I’d even told him how glorious the stranger had been. John D. was a very attentive listener, and I couldn’t seem to stop talking. The coffee didn’t help.
And he had told me something that not only washed away the shame I’d felt as I was questioned by McBrennain, but gave me hope and energy. It turns out, my interview with McBrennain was the final nail in his coffin. Oh yes! Apparently, he’d been so cock-sure of my pitiful vulnerability, he’d revealed more than he realized. According to Sergeant John D., McBrennanin was a bad cop they had been investigating a long while on the suspicion he covered for the car trafficking ring, one of whom was Mr. Glorious. Huh. Well he certainly was in a good position to do so.
Voltaire said, “Fear follows crime and is its punishment”. I believe that it does, but not for everyone. As I warmed my hands on my third cup of coffee (don’t judge unless you’ve had a Why Wine incident of your own), I thought to myself that, as glorious as the stranger had seemed, he didn’t seem the kind who would ever know regret. Or maybe even fear. And McBrennanin? I couldn’t say. Some people love criminality, either outright or cloaked in authority.
I signed something that said I’d testify to everything I told Sergeant John Don, who by now was beginning to develop his own sort of gloriousness. I swallowed my thoughts, gave him a little smile, and closed the door behind him with my beautifully and dreadfully manicured hand.
I left our coffee on the table, grabbed a blanket to cover myself, and fell asleep on the couch. I’d need my beauty sleep if I was going to have another mani-pedi: and I mean the minute Salon de Beauté opened. Why Wine was my new least favorite color. Maybe I’d replace it with Siren Red.
You know how when you know you should do something but don’t want to do it, you find other things to do? Within an hour, my kitchen was sparkling down to the chrome on the water faucet at the sink and refrigerator grate.
I scolded myself, and, sinking down into my most comfortable chair, called the police. Detective John McBrennain was in charge of car trafficking and, I was told, he would be given the message and would contact me.
The next evening a loud knock on my door startled me, and, although the moon hadn’t yet risen, I had my pajamas on – a wild floral combination of red, orange, and spring green. I flew into my bedroom, pulled sweatpants and a sweat shirt over my pjs and raced to open the door before I realized I should look through the peek hole first. My first hope was that it was the rough stranger with gray eyes even though he might be a car trafficker. How desperate was I? It wasn’t.
Detective McBrennain showed his badge and stepped across the threshold. I invited him to sit at the kitchen table, made coffee (my policy was no decaf, but he looked like someone who preferred the dark of night to the light of day anyway), and told him my story. I told him about the car, the man with glorious gray eyes, and seeing the same car on a Facebook post of a missing car. I told him the car must have been given a paint job, otherwise – and here I held up my beautifully manicured nails – it had been white. I told him I recognized the car by a triangle of tiny dings on the door handle.
Okay, I didn’t describe the trafficker’s eyes as glorious. I do have some sense. As I waited for John McBrennain to finish his furious scribbling in a little notebook, I looked down and noticed wild red, orange, and spring green sticking out from under my sweats. I tried pulling the bottom of my pant leg down with my foot, then gave up, reached down, and gave it a yank.
When I looked up, Detective McBrennain had placed a picture in front of me on the table. His eyes looked dead as he stared at me. “Are you playing games with me, Ma’am?”
“What? No!”
“We have been trying to track this guy down for years. And now I’m called to a house and given a story by someone who is next to him in a picture dropped at my office just one day ago. It certainly looks current.”
He gave me a perfunctory once over, clearly unimpressed.
“May I see your phone?”
I wondered if he could actually ask for it, but I couldn’t think of a reason to refuse. He gave it a couple of taps and frowned.
“You’ll need to come down to the station with me.”
I couldn’t believe this was happening. “No! This . . . this . . . guy, the car owner or trafficker or whoever he is took the picture with my phone.”
John McBrennain raised his eyebrows and tilted his head.
“Look, I know how this sounds . . .”
“Do you know how it looks, too?”
I paused, my mind racing. Someone who looked that glorious wouldn’t be as awful as I was beginning to think he was.
My mouth was dry as I said, “He set me up, Detective.”
The Detective rose as if he hadn’t heard me, pulled out a pair of handcuffs, and led me to his car.
I bent at the waist, held my hand next to the rear passenger side of the car, and with my other hand held up my phone. As I was just ready to tap the little white thingy that takes a picture, I felt hot breath on my neck and a strong hand squeeze my wrist so hard I dropped my phone.
“Hey!” I spun around and looked straight into the most angry and glorious set of gray eyes I’ve ever seen.
“Just what do you think you’re doing?” the glorious set of gray eyes said.
“I . . . I . . . I was admiring the color of this car – is it yours? And . . .”
My mouth was dry and my heart was beating much too loudly for me to think, so I held up my newly manicured hand, hoping he could figure out the rest of my sentence for me.
He pressed his lips together. I have to say here and now even that was beautiful. Stooping to pick up my phone, he turned, grabbed my shoulders, spun me around so that he and I were facing the car, hugged me close, and took a picture of the both of us. Then he punched in some numbers, tapped once or twice, and tapped again. Handing me my phone, he jumped into the car and started a purring engine. A perfect triangle of tiny dings on the passenger side door handle caught my eye as he pulled into the light afternoon traffic.
I shielded my eyes with my beautifully manicured hand and watched as he disappeared from sight while Tracy (my friend) made gurgling noises that ended in a gaffaw.
“No worries.” She held a small slip of paper in front of my face. “I got his license number.”
“Well that isn’t creepy at all.”
“What? It won’t hurt to see if you can at least find his name.”
Later that evening as I was munching on chips with a lovely little loaded cream cheese and salsa accompaniment, and staring at the picture of the two of us on my phone; he, with his chiseled good looks and me with a startled look on my face and no car in sight, I wondered what else he’d done besides take it. I mean he’d tapped a couple of times. Maybe he sent a copy to himself! Wouldn’t that be exciting! Why would he do that anyway, unless he thought I was just a little bit glorious, myself? The deafening silence of my little apartment holding no steamy or romantic memories asked me an awkward question: Who was I kidding? Still, I couldn’t think of what else he would’ve done.
I scrolled through my messages and contacts. A new number was nowhere to be seen. He’d either not sent the photo to himself or he must’ve deleted the number he sent it to.
I knew I shouldn’t, really I shouldn’t, but Tracy’s slip of paper was calling to me from my purse. I rummaged around, pulled it out, and sat down at my computer. A few taps would give me a name, right? Before I pulled up the DMV website, I checked Facebook to see what everyone had for dinner, their vacation pictures, and anything else that was better and more exciting than my little corner of the world.
As I sped past the political posts and inspirational memes, something caught my eye, so I backed up. It was a picture of someone’s baby. Not a real baby, mind you, but a car they had fixed, spit and polished ’til kingdom come. The post said it had been reported stolen, but to please repost and keep our collective Facebook eyes open for it. It had been a gift from his father, and, from the long post, the writer was heartbroken.
I squinted at the picture to convince myself it wasn’t the same car outside of Sissy’s Diner. After all, the posted car was white, not Why Wine. I know, I know. That’s not a real car color. They probably named it something like candy apple red, but, like most of the population, for now I’m sticking with what I know, even if I’m wrong.
But I wasn’t wrong. Not about the car. Because there, on the passenger side door handle was a perfect triangle of tiny dings.
First of all, no, I’m not a mani-pedi sort of girl. If I wanted someone cleaning my nails, I’d just dip ’em in melted butter and sit down by the dog. But I ended up at Salon de Beauté last Saturday because my best friend has a thing for things like that and I had a free afternoon. It wasn’t in France, either. It was on Buford Street tucked in between Matt’s Realty and Nuts To You. By the time we had pedis with matching manis, we were hungry. So we sauntered over (I know, what a word; but I believe it matched the extravagance of walking over the threshold of a place using French in its name, don’t you?) to Sissy’s Diner and ordered soup. Again, I know. But we’d just had manicures. What did you expect us to do? Break a nail carving steak? We considered sandwiches, of course; but by the time we would’ve handled the greasy fries that came with them, again, why take chances? And it wasn’t like we ordered chicken broth. We had the clam chowder Sissy’s was famous for. Plus handling a spoon gave each of us an excuse to glance at our newly polished fingertips: Pink Delish for my friend and Why Wine for me.
As we chatted on our way out the door of Sissy’s, I noticed a car just a few parking spaces down that exactly matched my mani-pedi color. What are the odds? We decided to walk (done with the sauntering now that we’d had clam chowder) over and take a hand selfie by the car. I mean, the color match was so unlikely – in our minds, at least – that it deserved a photo.
Can I just suggest one thing? If that ever happens to you, don’t do it.