No Accounting For Taste (cont. 1)

Having gotten to bed far later than usual and having gained the suspicion of a cold from spending more of the evening outside than planned, and in a misty rain at that, I hesitated following Chloe the next time she bought groceries. But how could I not? You question that? Well maybe you’re the type that can ignore things that seem out of the ordinary, and to that I say, enjoy the tsunami you didn’t see coming. However, I needed the peace of settling the question of Chloe’s strangely varied grocery items. I mean c’mon. Who buys all things wasabi, then takes a 180 degree turn the next week to an entire cart of bland?

So the next time she walked out of the store, I clocked out (easy to do since I work plenty of overtime) and followed her again. And again she did not return home. She went to a small white church that had sat empty for as long as I could remember. Again she jiggled the door handle just so and let herself in. Again she turned on a light. And again I sat outside into the night, this time in between some bushes nearby.

And so it went. One week it was what appeared to be a small apartment in the basement of an old building (she had to descend outside stairs before she did the jiggle of the door handle thing). I had never noticed its existence until that evening. Another week it was what I supposed to be a garden of sorts enclosed by a stone wall, and still another, the back door of a public library after it was closed for the day. A run-down playground. A boat house. My effort to discover the why of her grocery peculiarities gave no satisfaction at all, but rather led to more questions, and I began to lose sleep.

I decided I was going about things the wrong way and spent a few days at my computer trying to find information about Chloe (there was none except her home address) and about each place she spent an evening (nothing of note).

“You’ve been looking rather peaked lately.”

Chloe’s voice startled me. I was squatting, putting boxes of cereal on an endcap. I scrunched my eyes and made an effort to look at her like I was composing a police report in my head. It was unsuccessful.

“If you’re interested, I’d like to invite you to my house for supper tonight?”

It seemed an odd invitation since we knew each other only by sight. I glanced into her cart. Pasta, fruit, hamburger, french bread, and salad fixings sealed the deal. There was no reason to decline, of course. I nodded my head.

“You know where I live?” she asked with the hint of a smile.

I nodded again.

“See you at 6:00.”

to be continued . . .

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No Accounting For Taste

There’s no accounting for taste. I mulled over this truth as I pulled out another box of macaroni and cheese to put on the shelf of the little grocery store I worked at.

Due to its size, I recognized regular customers. There were, of course, some who dropped in irregularly, but I am not speaking of those. At least not yet; and I hope none of them will figure into my tale, but who knows.

No, the customer of whom I speak is a small woman in what I guess is her 70’s who caught my attention oh, maybe a few months ago; and it was due to her grocery choices. You know how people habitually buy the same kinds of things every time they shop? Bananas, bread, and milk, for example. Some people are drawn to boxed meals you can just dump in a pan and heat with very little effort. Others have a fond relationship with the cereal aisle. Or canned goods. Or rice. Not many shop for fish unless it’s in a little round can. For the most part, maybe without conscious intention, customers put the same things in their carts week after week, year after year.

But this lady – her name is Chloe – buys strikingly  different selections every single time. I asked her about it once, and she scrunched her eyes and looked at me like she was composing a police report in her head. Maybe I shouldn’t have taken notice, not that it should matter, right? But I get it. Who wants their grocery cart scrutinized? Not me and not Chloe either.

It pestered me, though. Why? I’ve no idea. Why should I care what someone buys at the grocery store? It’s just that it was unusual enough that it piqued my curiosity. Did she have guests with varied preferences over to her house once a week? Was she one of those who can’t bear routine? Was it simply that she shopped whatever was on sale? That at least made sense. Except she didn’t; shop only sale items, that is. Yes, I admit I was nosy enough to notice.

I was beginning to lose focus on things that actually mattered, so I decided to take matters into my own hands, find an answer to her unusual practice, and put it all to rest. No one would have to know, and I would be able to read a book without re-reading the same paragraph over and over again.

This next confession should stay between us because it makes me look suspicious enough that Chloe’s composing a police report in her head probably wouldn’t seem unreasonable to her or to you. Please, please don’t judge and, as a favor, I won’t scrutinize your peculiarities.

I followed her home. Oh she didn’t notice. I stayed far enough back and hid behind trees – that sort of thing – that she couldn’t have suspected anyone behind her. The thing is, she didn’t go home. This town is small enough that I had a general idea of where she lived. No, I didn’t look it up. I just knew because when you live in a small town there are some things you just know. Don’t ask me to explain it.

She took a completely different route and stopped at an abandoned auto repair place. What. She jiggled the doorknob just right, turned on a light, and let herself in. It began to mist, but curiosity kept me crouched behind an old oil drum for the rest of the evening. I must have dozed, because when I opened my eyes around midnight, the light was off, my clothes were soaked, and she was gone.

to be continued . . .

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Walls of The Old House

The house stood, as it had for 100 years, steady and proud among the other houses on the block; some nearly as old, but none older; and none that looked quite as dignified. It was empty now. Echoing. The walls held memories of weddings and post-funeral gatherings. They kept whispered secrets from one inhabitant to another, and remembered the incessant chatter of children growing up and shrieks and the sound of pattering feet. They had absorbed stories of missionaries from different lands and professors and a college dean and those who gave hours and days and years to churches. And graduations. And parties. They had heard weeping both loud and muffled. They had endured the sound of dogs and cats and chickens. And news of some wars. And prayers; prayers for help and healing, for a young man leaving for the military, for babies, for those whose faith wavered, and, of course, thanks in all of its variations from surprise to anticipated to relief-filled. Those walls had loved the sound of music. They had listened to piano lessons and music played and sung for the blessed sake of enjoyment. And for many many years it almost seemed the walls had joined in the lovely harmonies of Christmas carols sung at Christmas.

So on Christmas Eve, after a church service with candles and Silent Night, she drove down the dark streets to the old house and climbed its steps. Unlocking the door, she turned on the light, and walked to the center of the living room. And there she sang the old carols of long ago and not so long ago. She sang for the memories and for the beauty and precious gifts of music. She sang with hope for goodness in the tired world. And she sang for her Savior, Jesus, who held everything together. 2,000 years ago. 100 years ago. Today. And future days and years. And the walls heard. And they remembered.

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What He Said

Thanksgiving. A time set aside – set aside – for giving thanks to our Creator for the many benefits He gives to us with an open hand. As lovely as Christmas is, it isn’t a time for Christmas yet. Rather, Thanksgiving is a special, precious time of thinking, therefore seeing, our blessings.

The first time our nation celebrated this special day was in 1621, when people in Massachusetts celebrated with a feast of thanks in the New World. George Washington recalled their gratitude by issuing a proclamation of Thanksgiving in 1789. John Adams and James Madison followed suit. Then came the Civil War. There doesn’t seem to be much of anything to be grateful for in a war. Yet Abraham Lincoln designated thanksgiving to be given in every part of the United States, and also those who are at sea, and those who are sojourning in foreign lands, to set apart and observe the last Thursday of November next as a Day of Thanksgiving and Prayer to our beneficent Father who dwelleth in the heavens. Thanksgiving has been celebrated in the United States ever since. Or has it?

We have a day we call Thanksgiving. Many people look forward to a feast and football game. But Thanksgiving without true thanks is pretty thin, don’t you agree? With the challenges our nation has faced for a good decade – okay –  a century or more, we would do well to read about the struggles and triumphs of real people, the sacrifices and treasures discovered in the midst of those sacrifices, and the amazing mercy and provision of God through it all. We might even go waaay back and consider what Israel faced during the days of Jeremiah. In fact, to borrow his prayer:

I know, O Lord, that a man’s life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps. Correct me, Lord, but only with justice – not in Your anger, lest You reduce me to nothing.

And then, yes then, we might consider our own lives – the days we breathe in and out from day 1 until now – and consider the near misses, lessons learned, and certainly the blessings over them all. And only then we might begin to understand the mercy of God is beyond description. And our carelessness of thought and appreciation could be wearing a bit thin for Him. And upon reflection, repentance clears a beautiful path to giving thanks.

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Allow One Thing

Allow one thing to penetrate my thoughts;

One pleasing memory, One blessed time;

Whose simplicity a lesson taught

God’s splendid presence by design.

Allow one merit to inquire of me:

Courage, kindness, energy of youth;

Trust that heaven’s endless glory be

Shown in light of love and light of truth.

Allow in life and trouble and through time

Questions asked and later asked again

With answers changed and changing, yet all mine

Hide and seek, yet found in heaven’s name.

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A Win

It should be a banana flavored – mmm – something. She could almost taste it. A walnut flavor in the concoction and maybe cinnamon? She stared into space, cupboard door open and spoon in hand. She took a sip of coffee, then another, then a long gulp. It had gone cold while she had been lost in thought and imagination. Pulling a mixing bowl to the counter, she dropped the spoon in it with a clang, emptied the cold coffee from her mug into the sink, and refilled it from the still-hot carafe.

What was she even thinking? It’s just that the year had been – well she didn’t want to think about what it had been. Hard; not a terribly descriptive word, but true. Long; another, because the year had behind it other not so great years. And now what would it accomplish for her to do this – little something – that had never held import to her? She sighed. She needed a win.

Did she even stand a chance in the bake-off?  Long-time residents and new townsfolk freely joined in competition of original recipes in the small town annual tradition. She never had. But this year she did because this year, for the first time, she cared. Maybe she cared because her sister had taken second place last year, her mother had been first for more years than she could count, and her grandma’s and great grandma’s names were still known for their grand prize concoctions. Or maybe somehow, somewhere in the ether of thought, the importance of carrying on tradition, of knowing – not just from stories, but from experience – the gratification of pride in one’s own effort caught her attention. Maybe she finally was willing to put some skin in the game, so to speak.

She bit her thumbnail as she paged through an old recipe book. She grabbed a few more, in addition to her Grandma’s recipe box, and moved to a comfy chair. An hour later she was deep in concentration and contentment as she blended her original combination. If a sample of the batter meant anything, her Boston Banana Cream Cake with coffee-flavored ganache could be a contender. A generous piece with a glass of milk assured her she was right. Now to make a duplicate for the weekend’s contest.

“I loooved your bake-off entry!” Ginny exclaimed on their way out of church the following Sunday.

“Thank you. Your chocolate coconut cookies were great.”

Stella came up behind them. “I don’t know how you all come up with your ideas. Congratulations on taking first place. And your first time, too!”

“You know she comes from a long line of winners, Stel.”

“Oh. That’s right! Must be in the genes.”

She smiled. “I don’t know about that.”

Later, she thought over the weekend’s success. Winning wasn’t in anyone’s genes, was it? Was it more determination or creativity or was it something else? Fate? God? She thought of her great grandmother’s life – a person she’d never met. Though she’d had a hard year, her great grandma had more than one hard year. Maybe many. If stories meant anything, the woman worked her fingers to the bone. But she somehow had found the will and time to enter a happy little bake-off and not only won, but taken home more than one grand prize over the years. Why did she enter? What would she have become in different times? And did the hard times create something in her that led to creativity and determination?

She got up and took a bite of her entry straight from the platter. Whatever it was, wherever it came from, she was grateful she’d made the effort. Proud, even. She’d take the win.

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Your Small Stone

There are times in life when attention on the wrong thing makes us unaware of the good things: sunshine we ignore because the meteorologist said we needed rain, the laughter of children because we needed to concentrate on a project, the fresh smell of dirt because we wanted clean fingernails instead, or the sound of a church singing Amazing Grace because someone was off pitch. So many treasures line our path, but we miss them because our earbuds are in and our eyes, well, they might as well be closed.

And yet it is those very things – the precious things we miss because we are so used to them or because they have become so much a part of our lives that we take them for granted – that we should, we must, hasten to value before they are gone. For they will go as surely as the mist over a lake rises and disappears in the next minute.

You don’t need to tell someone what you think, but it’s nice to have the choice, isn’t it? You don’t need to carry a gun or even want one, but it might be a valuable option when you come face to face with someone who’d as soon kill you as look at you. You don’t need to go to church, but . . . I’ll stop there. I think everyone benefits from being part of a church who reveres God and loves Jesus. But God is better than I. He doesn’t force anyone to do anything. Free will is one of His best things. And freedom is a treasure.

All I know is some people think its unfashionable to love their one nation under God. Every once in awhile someone argues themselves into not voting or maybe not caring. Maybe they think their action and effort doesn’t matter. Or perhaps they feel too important to do such a common man thing as voting. Maybe a passionate professor or friend convinced them the old fashioned ways of our country need an upgrade. I can’t say because I don’t know. But whatever prevents someone from doing even a small thing to fight for his country – well I’m glad it didn’t prevent David from picking up some small stones when he saw Goliath. Dear friend, there could come a day – maybe very very soon – when those treasures you didn’t know you had will disappear because of your apathy or arrogance. And then. Then. You will long for something you had, but failed to treasure.

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Everything I Ever Needed I Found At Fleet Farm

There’s a certain scent in hardware stores – not the perfumy enticement of a department store cosmetic counter, but rather a scent of sort of solid security suggesting all will be well. Likewise, Fleet Farm Supply. Fleet Farm offers more, though.

When I was a young boy, I’d head straight for the toy aisles at Christmas where I found the toy tractors and farm implements emblazoned in their catalogues. In springtime, I’d make a beeline for the cheeping sounds of chicks kept in a large trough under warming lights at the back of the store. As a young man, I found satisfactory clothes there and, when I was on my own, I bought the kind of food and drink a person can actually enjoy. Tools? For home and auto, just like an insurance commercial. Hunting and fishing supplies capped my needs. In fact, I’ve often thought everything I’ve ever needed can be found at the Fleet Farm.

Then one day tested that claim.

I’d been moseying through the aisles, stopping too long at fishing lures and probably not long enough at propane. It was because I was gazing at the new fishing lure in my hand, that I ran smack into a customer at the endcap. She nearly fell, but I caught her; and we stood there for a split second locking eyes and sizing each other up. It was uncomfortable and a little exciting at the same time. I’m not sure she felt the same way.

Ten minutes later, I checked out: fishing lure, trail mix, and Dr. Pepper. I’d just tossed my treasure into the backseat, when a voice addressed me. I bumped my head on the ceiling of my car, and, rubbing my head, straightened before I shut the door.

Why were you following me?

It was the customer I’d bumped into earlier.

Following you? I wasn’t following you.

She motioned in the air. And yet, here you are.

Maybe you were following me!

And maybe you are interested in birdfeeders, but I don’t think so.

It’s true. I’m not interested in bird feeders. Never have been.

I glanced at my watch.

It’s lunchtime. Join me?

It’s been twelve years. We have three kids, four dogs, go to church on Sundays, and keep each other content. And I just picked up another bird feeder at Fleet Farm.

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I started this story two months ago. And then my mom’s death stopped many of life’s activities, as it should. Maybe I’ll address it sometime. But I wanted to finish what I started. It’s not as long as it might have been. But I am becoming accustomed to accepting that things aren’t always, or even usually, as we might wish them.

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That Secret Space

That secret space;

The place I go alone to seek His face;

A quiet, questioning encounter in His safe embrace;

Silent, still, and list’ning there I go.

 

Music there;

Notes unknown and known play sweet and pure;

They float and fly above imagination without care;

Then rest and speak a language no one knows.

 

 

I linger long;

To understand wisdom that I thought gone;

His tender voice carries a message needed, soft and strong;

A molecule and mountain always there.

 

 

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I Was Sure of It (conclusion)

I traveled ahead and then left as I was sure I should. At what I guessed was hour two, I stopped for a bottle of apple Snapple (it really is the best flavor) and sipped it in my truck as I considered my options. I didn’t care to return home since I’d invested time and gas at this point. Was I headed the right direction? I was so sure. Maybe I should say I had been so sure. The problem with being sure – very sure – is that unless the Good Lord, Himself, has told you, there’s a remote possibility you could be wrong, emphasis on remote. I hate to even admit it. I’m sure you can understand.

The sun was definitely high in the sky and trekking downward. Pulling into a gas station, I swallowed my pride, and inquired, then walked out the door to the sound of laughter a little too loud for my taste.

Anyway, that’s how I ended up spending the night in my truck under the stars, having turned myself completely around and reaching my destination after it closed. Fortunately, there was another auction nearby the following day, and I didn’t care to return home and risk a late arrival not to mention wear and tear on my truck. It was the first time I’d ever parked in the first space in a parking lot.

By the time I woke up and found a row of porta-potties, a few food trucks had begun to arrive. I have to say, my favorite thing about auctions, or anything else for that matter, is the food. I nourished myself with a bag of mini donuts and cup of coffee.

I was kind of glad I missed my intended auction and ended up at this one instead. It was a rowdy bunch and I met some interesting people, one who expressed interest in my truck. I know. Right?

As the day wore on, I was routinely outbid and came up empty. I figured I’d try one more time before I left, though by now the bids were for boxes of things unknown – kind of like a grab bag at a candy store. I got one! Actually two, since the woman taking my money shoved a second one at me for free. I think she was worn out. I paid the princely sum of $15.00 and took them to my truck to see if there was anything of value. They held some pictures taken around the 1920’s I guessed, an old set of encyclopedias, an interesting variety of electronics, and a few things I thought maybe I could sell on FBMP.

My friend arrived Monday to return my laptop. I invited her in and, after hearing about her research paper, I dug around in one of the auction boxes.

“Ah! Here it is,” I said, handing her a laptop. It was a Dell.

“I checked it out. It seems to be in good condition. Anyway, since I have one, I thought maybe you could use it.”

She nearly squeezed the breath out of me, and her expressions of thanks were nearly as rowdy as the auction had been. I started craving mini donuts.

I’m sitting here now, tapping the end table with the card the guy who was interested in my truck gave me. He wrote his phone number on it. Should I call him? I’m leaning toward what I’m sure should be yes. Maybe.

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